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Tuesday, May 31, 2011

a rather life changing weekend.

So i've got this weird 1cm thingamajig in my cervixs and an extra PCO syndrome that comes along with it. It's quite obvious that my hormones are not being quite themselves for this past 2years or so. But then it sucks to know the fact that something is going to happen to you physically and that's not very pleasant.

It isn't that serious as a matter of fact but now that a day has passed. I'm beginning to be feel the after effect. I'm quite afraid that there might be more complications. Quite. I have to get that damn thing cut off.

It's really not that bad initially. Having an extra lump of i have no idea whats that gives me the privilege to get it my way. When people complain about how sucky their life is. I'll shoot back with a "i have a 1cm tumor inside me and a weird PCO syndrome and i'm not complaining. so whats your problem, please shutup."

Its not a big deal to have my right ovary infertile. Then after scanning through the report, my right one is twice the size of the left one. So it totally translates into 66.666666% lesser chances of being pregnant. Which is more than 50% and close to 70% (also known as an A2). Not that i want to get pregnant now. Pregnant women and babies scares me.

At most i'll get more hormonal changes, grow hair, become manly, grow a beard, get more fucking acne (walao damn sian), and finally evolved into a man when i come back to Singapore 1.5 years l8r.

"Hi, mom and dad, good news, its a boy"

Ouh. and probably get cervical cancer.

Worst Case Scenario.

At least without the comforting words or encouragement, why flood me with your insensitive comments about my medical condition. "Oh you are suay to get this" *continue ignoring me* Does it actually feel nice to say that? This whole incident gave me like a totally different perspective of life and relationships.

I don't think it's quite possible to continue my life having to swallow and stay silent with the verbal insults poured to me every single day. The point is that being me, i cannot stay silent. And if i don't i will nag and nag till the sun sets and i'll get 10times the verbal abuse back at me. So i have to keep my mouth shut so when i get verbal abuse x1 i wouldn't get it 10 times the power back. BUT I JUST CANNOT SHUTUP.

"You are a bitch"
"why do you call me a bitch, why? why do you have to say that? Do u know its awful? Do you feel joy in saying that?"
*Fumes* "You are a bitch x10 and because you are a bitch i'm going to record your whole conversation."

And you record me nagging. Does that appease you? Seriously? Oh lord. Why did this even happen. And because i don't want to get recorded. (Seriously damn fucking childish i should have just keep my mouth shut tightly with industrial tape from the start) i shut up, go to the toilet and hit the wall bang my head flush myself down the toilet bowl. I should have just kept quiet from the start right?

I get this weird lump in my cervix and a weird syndrome that causes me to have more than average male hormones (Seriously damn WTF LUH) & i have to suck up all the insensitive comments from you. Then again i'm not dying but it sucks be unhealthy luh ok.

It doesn't feel very good lo. Like hello look. people around me are healthy i am not i have a weird illness that i have to live with hormonal medication. Sucks ok. And the damn thing is making me feel nausea and its annoying, i wouldn't say its that bad. Just rather irritating. I know you don't have it. But you don't have to make me feel that way. Its not as if i'm dying its just that i have to schedule so many medical appointments now i have no idea if i can make it by the end of the month. & its pissing me off because i am leaving soon.

On the brighter note. Fuck Singapore, i'm gg to aussie soon.

Written @ 12:53 PM

Monday, May 09, 2011

Oh shut up already.

Whats with all the likes.

Me: why do you like XXX?
A: i dunoe, he lost to WWW, tragic, what a lost of such great talent. *Continue liking rest of the pages that concerns him*
Me: So what did he do that inspires u?
A: well i'm not very sure too

STOP LIKING COS THAT'S WHAT EVERYONE'S DOING IT.

"Oh lord its a great loss. People are blind"

Shut the fuck up will you? Do you even understand what you are liking in the first place. I'm not dissing XXX, i'm just upset with those who don't know a shit and is trying to act like "you are the next big politician" trying to bombard my page with likes and more likes and more more likes.

Because XXX didn't get selected for class chairman, you feel sad for XXX, you ask him go be head prefect. DOESN'T WORK THIS WAY, especially not on facebook my dear.

Stop trying to know everything when you just read the whole GE through FB posts. Even when people get their facts through the papers and articles, they still have to use their brain to think for themselves.

Please provide more intellectual political views that supports your plain liking instead of.. Oh wait a minute, YOU ARE NOT OF LEGAL AGE YET! THAT'S WHY

I DON'T CARE AND I'M NOT PAID TO CARE YET.

oh well, at least i know everyone of them is paid to do what they do. I love my job, really, but I'm still paid to do it. Everyone has a price tag, what's yours?

THAT IS LIFE. ACCEPT IT

Written @ 12:29 PM