Wednesday, July 25, 2007
yesterday was like a damn emo day
then i recall what justina said.
she have true friends
TRUE FRIENDS
they will always be by your side
and nvr betray your trust in them
they will nvr go around spreading your secret.
or will they?
i start to think
do i have one?
maybe. maybe not
and so i opened a NONE-TRUE FRIEND CLUB on 24 june 2007 14:44
but i closed it on 24 june 2007 14:47
for whatever reason
then justina told me alot of people got choosen for DPA interview.
i tried to be optimistic.
thinking that i may receive their msg once i reach home.
4 unread msg.
and none from them
idunoe.
i nvr felt so jealous in my life
yeah. i am jealous
i am jealous they got choosen.
then i start to think
why me?
why must it be me that is not choosen?
why must it not be me to be choosen for the courses i want?
why did they got the course i wanted and i didnt?
i feel so inferior
no matter how hard i try i nvr pass my math and science
when i start to be good at it, i thought i will finally pass my exams but no i still fail.
my humanities is also getting worse
my 'o' lvl chinese listening compre is a goner.
why must i be so stupid?
why must others be so clever?
why must my dnt artefact be such a failure?
and others are like so well done?
this year is a damn emo year.
i get easily fustrated about studies and stuff.
and parents just dont give a damn.
but after this incident,
i realise i did have a true friend.
and friends i do trust in.
thank you people for cheering me up
thanks miss chonghaoyan for being my true friend cum fellow nun cum haojiemei and cheering me up whenever i feel sad.
thanks for teaching me maths 3+ am in the morning although i still fail.
thanks for telling me your deep dark secret that you still pee in bed.
opps did i just say it out?
LOL
you know its fake luh. jiao lang.
and daniel,
though i just get to know you,
it seems that i can just pour out all my unhappiness to you.
and thanks for trusting me.
LOL LUH.
why i so emo 0.o
Written @ 8:05 PM
Friday, July 20, 2007
so weiying decided to cancel the harrypotter date with me and she went to watch with other ppl -..-
fine.
that bitch is damn irritating
i nvr do anything then say me
everything also aim me.
i feel like slapping her face
yeah. maybe after i graduated from damai
then i shall go back slap her face then SHUANG~
lol.
l8r she go complain me. then i'll be like
OMG i am SOO scared
then have to right apology letter -..-
for fuck?!
well. today was like fun.
i like justina's shirt
thought the words was a halal sign.
but its not
took lots of pictures. but not with me now.
daniel look like he is in pj's
and when taking class photo i keep accidentally kick until junjie.
come on luh. so squeezy then move abit jiu bu xiao xin kick dao liao what
lol. i keep bumping into ppl too.
i stand on heels for 16 hours.
wo shi pro de lor
after sch do dnt.
nvr do at all.
just stare at mr chua doing
then spoil
LOL.
redo redo redo
and mr CHONG HAOYAN is bu gou peng you de lor.
i want gen ni jue jiao.
you ass. you still consider yourself my haojiemei?!
then went to starbucks stone -..-
wait for time to fly
since we missed the 3.30 show
watch harrypotter and the order of the pheonix.
not a bad show luh
acceptable.
but goblet of the fire is still the best
:D
oh. and wilson lee bing wei. please return me my psp game
i am missing my game now. i cnt slp without it
):
Written @ 11:10 PM
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
i finally saw my zi xin ren
direct translation: know heart person
a guy who acturelly enjoy chasing birds!
never knew i will find someone who share such the same weird interest with me
but whatever
maybe i shall tell him join the anti-bird club
then scare all birds off planet earth
no b4 scaring them off we shall make them all shit on justin seah's head
MUAHAHHAHAHA
prepare to die
lol. and i just realise its been long since i talk to my imaginary friend
i've been talking alot to myself lately.
Written @ 5:59 PM
i finally saw my zi xin ren
direct translation: know heart person
a guy who acturelly enjoy chasing birds!
never knew i will find someone who share such the same weird interest with me
but whatever
maybe i shall tell him join the anti-bird club
then scare all birds off planet earth
no b4 scaring them off we shall make them all shit on justin seah's head
MUAHAHHAHAHA
prepare to die
Written @ 5:59 PM
Monday, July 16, 2007
i have this odd feeling as if i am still in primary school
perhaps i am going to leave damai soon and that makes me think about it.
idunoe i just feel weird
suddenly i feel like blasting linkin park song like my primary 6 days
i feel sad i blast linkin park song
when happy i blast
when angry i also blast
and fuck i lost my linkin park cd-..-
primary sch is like...
idunoe, memorable
carefree and stuff, but i feel i am not happy when i was in primary school.
i still remeber i long to just get out of that tps and go secondary school.
yet i dont think i am also happy in this school.
like when i was lower sec i just want to hurry change class
friends sucks there
then upper sec..
...
weird feelings
not that teachers and stuff
but i dunoe
i use to try to get out of primary school but now i feel otherwise
-..-
suddenly i have the urge to contact primary school friends
but i then realise i wasnt close to them at all
totally lost contact.
and perhaps they all just want to move on with their lives and forget about that awful primary school days.
-i miss those noob noob play catching, hopscotch, five stones day.
-eating 40cents ice cream everyday
-stay back for higher mothertongue and buying bottled lemon tea for every lesson
-those stupid crushes and noob i like you you like me stuff.
-slaping my 'enemies' and acting as if i hate them but acturely is the other way
-having spelling like everyweek
-getting band 1 for maths and science like almost for every test
-my first 100 marks for english can you acturely believe it?
-crying for fucking small matter like people tugging my hair
-those tiring yet fufilling chior rehersals and performances
-those high socks, mary jane shoes, and jap looking chior uniform
-having to not move for half an hour for choir practices not move as in really stone
-those period and cramps free days. fuck menses
-those teasing, that made the poor guy ran out of school
-those tie 2 ponytail days
i just feel lost luh
dnt is fuck luh
mr pek does not want to help me
nobody help
fuck luh
now i just want to finish and thats all.
i am not going to improve it any further.
not that i give up but, it's just weird.
shall go emo and listen to avril lavign and fir songs
so primary school and sec 1 or is it sec 2?
Written @ 5:32 PM
Sunday, July 15, 2007
i'm feeling weird.
very not like myself -..-
anyway had a terrible nightmare yesterday
it goes like this:
i was suppose to pass up my dnt artefact within 30 minutes
then i like rush like FUCK
in the end pass up a horrible looking artefact that is half done
-..-
scary
that is not the scariest yet.
once i had this horrible nightmare
this super long dream
that i went to hell?
then ot alot of spirits and stuff-..-
i am having weird dreams nowadays
one was like i stared at a bunch of gangsters in the field from my balcony
and they ran away LOL
thinking about weird dreams i had plenty of them
one was when i was a counciller
morning assembly then suddenly stage change and everybody started dancing
there is even performers on stage throwing baby looney tunes floats
yeah floats
those circular ones that when you were young you use to swim in?
LOL
dreams are weird luh.
anyway yesterday was fun
went to kbox sing like fuck
sing until no voice
lao zhang was -..-
zi high
teomengseng was
...
eugene tan was -..-
nvr sing at all?!
even linkin park he also dowan-..-
waste money de
so we sing sing sing yoyoyo until 1 am
suppose to end at 3 but -..-
the bill came up to $124.76 for 4 person
LOL
LOL
LOL
LOL
LOL
heng not i pay
Written @ 12:02 PM
i'm feeling weird.
very not like myself -..-
anyway had a terrible nightmare yesterday
it goes like this:
i was suppose to pass up my dnt artefact within 30 minutes
then i like rush like FUCK
in the end pass up a horrible looking artefact that is half done
-..-
scary
that is not the scariest yet.
once i had this horrible nightmare
this super long dream
that i went to hell?
then ot alot of spirits and stuff-..-
i am having weird dreams nowadays
one was like i stared at a bunch of gangsters in the field from my balcony
and they ran away LOL
thinking about weird dreams i had plenty of them
one was when i was a counciller
morning assembly then suddenly stage change and everybody started dancing
there is even performers on stage throwing baby looney tunes floats
yeah floats
those circular ones that when you were young you use to swim in?
LOL
dreams are weird luh.
anyway yesterday was fun
went to kbox sing like fuck
sing until no voice
lao zhang was -..-
zi high
teomengseng was
...
eugene tan was -..-
nvr sing at all?!
waste money de
so we sing sing sing until 1 am
suppose to end at 3 but -..-
the bill came up to $124.76 for 4 person
LOL
LOL
LOL
LOL
LOL
heng not i pay
Written @ 12:02 PM
Friday, July 13, 2007
i am dying from fever-..-
oh god save me please.
i still need to do my dnt
and monday got english oral
anyway. help me choose
1.Diploma in Veterinary Technology
2.Diploma in Interior Architecture & Design
3.Diploma in Psychology Studies
4.Integrated Events and Project Management
5.Diploma in Hospitality & Resort Management
Written @ 7:15 PM
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
oh god. save me please. i want a gucci bag badly.
please drop an authentic gucci bag from the sky for me
Written @ 6:22 PM
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
i made this
cute right?
and my mini mini clay model for my dnt artefact
super cute
the joints that threaded are replaced by magnets
and the massager is working, can spin one
damn damn cute
oh god(:
and damn i got my dnt artefact measurement wrong
bloody hell
and e3 people are making me zibei
stop making your artefact so nice can!
its only 30 marks!!
eew
eew luh. i think i gna get very lan for my dnt
-..-
chinese oral was LOL
can guess the topic one
and the passage is like wtf?!
i dunoe how to read!
damn hard
but the conversation was ok
but that teacher keep cutting me
then i was like *force myself to talk cock* blahblahblah
then she like want to go on to next question -..-
phone speaker crack and chipped
and i am using mom's laggy phone now
so cannot stand it
WELl.
7%GST!!
-..-
its like the 4thday of 7%gst
faggot
i hate the 2%increment
-..-
-..-
-..-
its like -..-
-..-
-..-
-..-
prices are increasing and laoniang's pocket money isnt
and bloody hell wheres that maid that is suppose to reach my house on monday?
havent finish training?
what service is this
omg i am having mental breakdown
seriously
this few days i just keep doing homework doin homework doing homework until 11 plus
then study study study until 1 plus or 2
then i will suddenly feel extremely stressed out
starts to *bing bong piang*
then *come out smoke*
then T_T like a retard
but as usual xiaoyun the almightly never fail to cheer herself up
so i will start talking to myself
blah blah blah
and tada happy again
ahhh. i dunoe luh
i am getting so pissed off by teachers
those teachers that are ok one, now see their face feel like slapping
not because they jiao me although some do jiao me
now i prefer to be alone
idunoe
cos silence is golden
although i occasionally talk to myself but whatever
ahhhh.
stressed-..-
Written @ 7:02 PM
