Thursday, August 28, 2008
FINALLY. exams are over. But the feeling aint so great after all. After RHT paper my heart dropped. Seriously. I think about the number of tests i screwed up. The huge difference i need to score to get that A or perhaps maintain that B+ or B. The GPA 3.5 that i once thought was oh-so-fucking easy to get if i put in effort.
I swear i swear i studied hundred thousand millions and billions way more than O levels or even prelims. I fell sick for the POM paper. I stayed awake overnight to finish studying at mac, starbucks, mac and mac. But no matter how hard i study, it just turn out sucky.
Mind blank for econs. totally flunk the paper. If i can pass then i will be like damn damn extremely happy. Rest were the same. The questions that came out were the exact of what i studied. But apparantly, at that exact moment, nothing gets into my small, tiny, pueenny, almost invisible for a naked human eye brain.
DIE. But so? blame it on my part of being so dumb from the start.
After O levels i have always think that i have broken out of that horrible digusting bunch of losers catergory to the much smarter, above average, or perhaps the "much more cleverer than you think who you are" kinda person. I feel clever, i feel above average, i feel that i am too clever for some people.
Or perhaps it was because i have been use to being the better ranking ones in class.
Something's wrong with my mentality. awfully wrong. I feel that its degrading to have an un-intellectual conversation with people who have a much lower qualifications, low sense of maturity and mental ability, or perhaps no certificate to show that the person was a qualified homogenious being.
Utter disgust with that thinking ng xiaoyun. Proud, selfish, arrogant bitch, woman. Thinking that the whole world revolves around you and that everyone wasn't as clever as you are, miss oh-so-brainy ng xiaoyun.
Fuck those thinking.
Now no matter how hard i work, i am always the bottom few. You know how that feels? BAD. FUCKING BAD. MOTHER FUCKING BAD!!! (i'm getting more and more vulgar due to these increased stress)
I dont want to be the last few in class. I always thought GPA 3.5 will not be a problem for me. And at times secretly mock at people for getting scores below that. EEW with that mentality!
I'm seriously going to break down. I want to score well LUHHH!!!!
& stop bitching about people xiaoyun. Bitching about people being a bitch is such an irony, because it makes you one too.
&& i'm so happy because i finally have time to zhng my other stuffs (that includes my hp headphones, MP4, new headphones and the old headphones. woohoo)
&&& i'm so gna embark on a journey to rescue my pathetic, hideous complexion from that boom of growing population of pimples. Facial, mask, early rest, controlled amount of alcohols everynight, hmmm and controlled clubbing frequencies?? ( i want to quit but its HARD LUH. its like smoking. equally hard). I'll change them back to what they originally were. Pimple free (at least), smooth (to a certain extend).
NONO. They will be going to be as smooth as my buttcheeks. HAHAHAHHA
Written @ 11:53 PM
Thursday, August 21, 2008
MY wonderful 200th post!!!!
hahaha anyway i HAVE to blog and post some pictures today!!
its so funny i keep laughing. my gawd. Serious. Weiying was like lets popart some of my photos. Then we ended up anime-ting our faces and cropping them into lolita and anime pictures. I didnt study beacause of that!!! OMG. Photoshop is seriously addictive. I manage to complete my whole entire fnb but still not very very 100% sure with it. Shall go study l8r. so anyway anyway.....
The wonders of PHOTOSHOP babeyyy..
ok the photos werent really well done.
ok well all of the photos are seriously not WELLDONE. Hey, you can't expect top professional photoshopping skills outta us you know.
oh well. the photos....
ok this one sucks. really awful.
Me without photoshop, looking seriously UGLY here. HAHAHA
with the help of photoshop!!!!
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weiying, XXX and me!!!!!
I'm the brunette with pony tails FYI.
and i bet you all are guessing who the hell is XXX or perhaps whos that person in the middle.
ok ok.. I'll say. She's actually really pretty but has really short short hair so we decide to photoshop her hair into a much longer one. Thats the reason why she look so fake in the picture. And tada. this is HER!!
Chio right? Her name is Susan Tan Wei Wei
okok. With some photoshop on her face. but i swear its minimal. REALLY.
So still cannot figure out who she is?
hahahaha
BEHOLD!!!
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TAN ZHIWEI!!!!!! hahahahahaha
wouldnt have guess it right!!!!. && this was the same photo used for the anime charactors too. WOW right. hahaha.
&& my blog is zhiwei's homepage. I feel so honoured luh!!!!
Written @ 11:07 PM
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Too stressed recently, oh my.
wine appellations and grape varieties are major killer.
Qualitatswein Bestimmter Angbaugebieter
Qualitatswein mit Pradikat
Denominacion di Origen Controlata e Garantita
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and the list goes on
Authorize grape varieties in specific regions is hell confusing, cause i just cannot get it right. oh mans!! why can't they use the same grape varieties in all of the countries and regions!
I'm hopeless in RHT and econs. save me please!!! I need these A's really really badly.
Anyway my life revolves around starbucks, books, mac, books. Haha. Studying drains more money out of me as compared to shopping. A cup of venti java chip frappe at starbucks then at least 7 bucks on ice latte and large fries. Oh wells, look on the bright side. You are going to work straight after exams on the day of the last paper. You just got a $8per/hr job. You may get to join F1 ambassdor and claim that measly amount of allowance because the whole point of going is to gain experience rather than the monetary incentives. You may get back to annasui and get back to your measly $6per/hr pay + 3% commission.
Life sucks without money. Can you even imagine life without money?
Horribly unimaginable!!
So, the only way to make myself richer in the future is to study hard now. Stop slacking for fuck sake and start mugging. Attain that almost perfect result, get into a reknown university mug again and get that holy holy degree. Than perhaps, by then think again whether i should continue studying or proceed on to that full of politics, major backstabbing and competitive working society.
Good idea aint it. hahaha.
Or maybe i'll just pursue interest and go be a freaking tourguide. Maybe? But how much can i earn? 2k to 6k? safe estimate perhaps 2-3k a month? Errr. little? Or perhaps i'm too demanding.
Oh well. But no matter how hard i study, how well i can score, i'll still feel inferior. Yes maybe what they say was right. I'm dumb, still dumb even how hard i may seem to try to change it. I'm still DUMB (big, fat with caps!!)
But though thats the way, i'm not going to stop trying. fuck off loserssssssssss!
hahahaha.
ok. finally. Photos on commskills presentation day in swensen!!!
Tony's hair, laoniang's eyes, casssie wassie's mouth
Laoniang's eyes, Sophiiia's mouth
Back off to study!! woots
Written @ 4:32 PM
Friday, August 15, 2008
After some serious thinking, sometimes i feel girl makes much better listeners. They understand, advice without hurting you.I wonder what was i thinking at that time. You made me feel more like a sucker after that.
I felt worse.
I felt discouraged.
I feel negative.
In the first place. I didn't ask you to hear me out. You said you can be my listening ear. I didn't want to say. You make me say it. And you did a very bad job.
perhaps i should just listen to cassie wassie instead.
CASSIE WASSIE
thanks for hearing me out
I <3>
anyway, i'm not les. oh goodness.
&& i also feel like saying.
When someone was friendly initially, then gave you a cold shoulder all of a sudden, why would you choose to be friendly back. I mean it is clear that the person is ignoring you for a purpose. Or perhaps, has change their perspective towards you. And after much rejections, why do you still want to be friend with a person who refuse to be friendly towards you.
&& if someone was aready really hostile and cold to you initially. Why would you still choose to talk to him/her. Its obvious that the person do not want to be friends with you and find you seriously irritating. This shows absolutly no sign of progressing, even as friends.
But why do you all still dont get it?
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Written @ 2:04 AM
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
My face is awfully dry & its peeling like crazy.
I'm gonna lose my face.
My face is SO~ gonna drop out.
Breakouts are horrible
ZOMGWTFBBQCOW!!!
save me from that horrible pimple attack PLEASE!!!
ok. i know i sound like a freaking bitch
Written @ 11:37 PM
Sunday, August 10, 2008
The Mummy Sucks
The mummy sucks big time. Its not nice. Was expecting much much much more than that though. Oh well. I got a really really cool watch. Its damn old school haha.
Class gathering
Horribly akward. i dont even know 1/2 of the people there.
Pastamania,
The person refuse to accept my card, which she insist that is a visa not nets and they only accpet nets or cash. After much explaination she choose not to believe me. And when i gave her another card, a nets card. She choose not to accept it and stupidly tried net-sing my "visa". Oh btw, my card is a atm card, debit card and a ezlink card, so obviously got nets right!!!. So when they finally succeeded net-sing my card she said " wah, jian gui" (wah see ghost). Its like -oo-. noob shit. Didnt even say sorry for that.
Then left to stand at a corner discussing where to go. With a freaking budget its hard to go anywhere. And it really sucks without enough cash. Hate it when people know they are going out and refuse to bring enough for the day.
Well, group split, and we went to party world to K. Place was er.... rather lo pok. -oo- Damn akward again, not with the company because i know who are they. But they refuse to sing and the atmosphere was REALLY dull. It was totally NOT FUN!! i prefer the class outing with my class. Although the place was really lo pok. But we were all shouting, screaming and dancing throughout!
Maybe i've changed too much to actually have fun with old friends *shrugs*
i'm not in this picture -oo-
Then left to watch Money no enough. suppose to meet up at The Cathay and blur me ended up at cineleisure. HAHAHAHA. Well i walked there alone, scary and lonely and lu jiaxuan never pick up my call!! Chong haoyan refuse to talk to me!! and so i called ycy.
Anyway the show was da best!!! It is damn damn good luh!! Everybody should watch it. Like seriously
National Day. What a boring day
studied wines in the morning went home to sleep then went out for dinner. Dinner was at sakura, horrible buffet. My gawd. Chawan mushi sucks big time. I bet the egg wasn't really beaten well, because some part was saltier then the other. Although i dont even know how to boil a freaking egg. But at least i know how to beat the egg properly. -oo-
Then stoned at a corner for 1/2 hour doing practically NOTHING at all.
We were so bored we decide to leave that boring place. So in the end we ended up at E!hub. Full house at Kbox, played arcade instead.
I didnt manage to watch my fireworks. I'm not a least bit happy. Boo!!
Anyway if you didnt realise i've been wearing the same thing for both days HAHAHAHA
Written @ 11:21 PM
Sunday, August 03, 2008
i wanna watch fireworksssssssssssssssssssssss
nobody is freeeeeeeeeee
sucks
i shall go watch it myself
*yawns*
Imagine staring at the beautiful wonderful and colourful sparks alone kena squeezed by alot of freaking smelly major B.O people. -oo-
ok ignore the many people part.
imagine....
AWWWWWW~!!!
so nice can!!
I watched the fireworks twice last year. It was freaking LONG . Mygawd! but its damn damn damn damn nice!! watching fireworks just make me very very happy
i want to go watch!!! But i cant possibly go alone right?!!!!! *hint hint* haha. Oh well, there's still stinky. But apparantly Stinky got engage with Soph so i shall be alone on national day night .....
emoing alone and watching fireworks on TV
-_-
Written @ 10:11 PM
Saturday, August 02, 2008
The time is 6.16am.
i'm still in school doing project.
Have been there since 2pm the day before
11.00am to 2.30 SA hand over ceremony.
NO sleep until then
XIAOYUN THE ALMIGHTY
3 cheers for xiaoyun please~
All i want was just an A
Written @ 6:13 AM
