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Tuesday, May 20, 2008

comm skills test today is -oo-
sometimes i wonder why am i in this world

whats the purpose in our life?

to study, get a good job, fall in love, fall out of love, fall in love again, then get married, give birth and retire?

is that all are suppose to do?

why do we have to study?

sometimes i feel life being so mundane.
its like consistently doing the same stuffs all over and over again.
perhaps at times we had fun, joy, but once the sun comes out, its once again back to where we have stopped. Everything have its end, and this is where the fun ends. We have to go on with our lives, may it be work or studies. It always occur to me in that way. Especially enjoying a wild night out, just to realise that tomorrow is just another day like every other day.

But what is life without ups and downs? If there werent boring stuffs to do, there wouldnt be fun we enjoy. Its the downs that make enjoyment significant. Its the short period of happiness that made life colourful.

But as time passes, we seem to have overlooked those little details and what we have done, as our memory refreshes so often we forgot how to treasure people around us. Yet these are what shaped us. Each tear we shed, each cut that left a scar, is the reason what made us stronger. We seem to slowly cultivate a stronger personality and start to drift off from what we had started. We can no longer be happy when we actually are, smile when we want to, cry when we feel like it or be angry when something/somebody is pissing you off. Instead, we have to smile when we are angry or sad, cry when there is a need, stay calm when we are happy or angry. Slowly we will start to sink all the way down, to where nobody understands us.

At times when i'm down, i'll start to ponder why nobody understands me, but at the same time i ask myself, is it me, that do not want be understand?

We can never turn back the clock to what we use to be. We just have to keep walking down the path, making decision, ensuring every crossroads we are heading to are not a dead ends.

So much as we want to rewind every single one of those childhood memories, we are yet reluctant to give up growing. There can never be an end to desires, we just have to learn to be satisfied.

I think i tend to treated my friends or kins for granted, thinking they will always be around. Life should be more then what i think now. Maybe when i start to treasure and be satisfied with what i am now, i'll start to understand the definition of life. Is it more then just living it to the fullest, doing what makes you feel happy or something more than that.

life should also be more than just studying -oo-

Written @ 5:56 PM