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Thursday, September 21, 2006

i have made many many empty promises for myself
i said from sec 2 mid yr that i wanted to fucking perm my hair
i said i will do it during end of yr
no i didnt
i said i will do it this yr mid yr
neither did i perm
i said once again i will perm duringthis one wk holiday
no i still broke my promise to myself
yeah. i have NO money
no financial support frm family
both father and mother says they are poor
refuses to buy me things
refuse to pay for my expenses
but this time it aint the same
i am gna save and perm it straight after exams
as a birthday present for myself

my birthday is coming soon
i am getting older
i dunoe why am i so excited abt it.
i shld be sad, unhappy, and feel gay
cos i will be dieing soon

i think i got bribed by the present
but wait what if i have NO present
what if NOBODY calls me out
what if NOBODY celebrates
what if NOBODY bothers to msg me and wish me happy birthday
what if NOBODY even notice that its my birthday
what if NOBODY cares

justina told me she had this experience NOBODY call her out to celebrate her birthday
she went home alone
sad, and depress
but thn her friends came knocking on her door and bought her a cake
she cried, being so touch

ok what if nobody cares
imagine.
xiaoyun walks out of school alone
xiaoyun board the bus alone
xiaoyun walking on the lonely pavement home and sees retarded pigeons.
i dont even think i have the mood to chase the gay birds which i normally do whenever i go sch and come home
i dont even bother to notice them perhaps
no. wait.
"PLOP" bird shit drops on the head
xiaoyun feels the shit on the head -.-
nono. she wont freak out and scream or jumps arnd like a retard which she normally do whn she is alone or with friends
she will just walk back home feeling so so SO depress
xiaoyun opens the door with her hello kitty key
the door just stood whr it is
and she have to spend half an hr to get the door open
finally so tired so tired that she doesnt even bother about the bird shit on her head, she plopped her whole body onto the sofa
the eyes flickering trying to shut
the brain starts to stop working
the dream starts the appear in her mind
"DING DONG" the door bell ring

xiaoyun: err. wth?

unwillingly crawled up to reach for the door
xiaoyun opens the door "SQUEK~~"

person outside door: er would you like to donate some money for the unfortunate
xiaoyun: errr.
person outside door: *scans the shit on her head* eh. nvm thn i cn understand* walks away like a retard*
xiaoyun: err huh? *closing the door*
person outside door: btw you got bird shit on your head!
-.-

so much for the shit

ok the most important part
1159
xiaoyun looking a the clock counting down to the few seconds
thn stares at the phone
"TIK TOK TIK TOK"
twelve o'clock

xiaoyun: er. happy belated birthday to myself *drops a tear and went to sleep*

yeah wouldnt that be sad
i knw you ppl out thr wouldnt care.
cos you will be like
"OH thn whr does the birdshit went to"

er. i will go pom pom thn wash away the shit one right?!
what is your problem?!

ok i just feel gay
nothing to blog about
suddenly feeling emo :(

Written @ 6:11 PM