:D

2011-09-07T18:43:00.009+08:00

inspirational,

PEACE

baby

2011-09-06T23:05:00.002+08:00

I might just be too bored

2011-07-06T21:02:00.004+08:00

Hello red hair.

Btw it's redder in real life. I feel like a walking tomato.

I'm starting to hate my hair so i'm gna go cut it again tmr. although with it's length now. I doubt there's much to work with. Fuck short hair hate it.

Last night of parteh-ing in singapore also cannot make it, must fail until like that. LOL Mega phail.

Let's pray i'll walk out of the salon happy tmr. Can't wait to get rid of this. Good lord~!

2011-07-06T00:31:00.008+08:00

gonna be a redhead tmr! Going for the orangey kinda red, not the red red. If anyone even understands.

Hopes it turns out red. Seriously. Its my third time dying it red.

2011-07-03T21:18:00.004+08:00

i'm sorry to say, but i had like the best 2 day 2 night over the weekend without constant screaming and shouting (just because u feel like it).

I was clearing my room

"CAN U THROW THE RUBBISH PLEASE. YOUR RUBBISH WE HELP U THROW ISIT. OWNSELF DUNO HOW TO THROW"

i was clearing ok. & i wasnt even done. and all the time i have to clear the rubbish for you. go out and throw. so whats the fucking big deal. First thing u do is to shout at me about everything u see. You dont try to understand u just shout. its fucking annoying ok.

Does that mean i throw my own rubbish and you go clear yours yourself?

Do you mean i just wash my own plates, your plates i leave it there for you to wash yourself?

Seriously if i fucking say that i'll get fucked again lo.

You can say u clear your own rubbish i cannot say then you clear your own rubbish? Seriously why am i even asking myself this question. OF COURSE CANNOT LUH. because i am born to clear my own shit and your shit. And you just have to clear your own shit (or let me clear your shit) and check and look if i have cleared my own shit. If i haven't, then its your wonderful time to fuck me cos i didnt clear my own shit b4 you found out. TADA.

I reach home you shout.

"JUST REACH HOME GG OUT"

I can't even remember when was the last time you TALKED to me. because 101% of the time. it was just plain shouting.

Holding a piece of paper u have to shout why i nvr bring file and shout all the day from tampines to jurong.

Seriously?

Continue to judge all you want. because i'm leaving soon~. I can't even rmb when was the time we spoke without u blasting my eardrums off. Because i gave up explaining the day u stop trying to understand me. Seriously, was there even a day you tried? Oh well. I'm fucking pissed ok.

You have that feeling like you're just sitting down in your room doing nth just munching on an apple and u get shouted for an hour because you are sitting down eating an apple. i've just experienced that half of my life ok. & now i'm just going to keep my fucking mouth shut and continue chewing on that fucking apple cos school needs money.

Fuck it.

No i will not be an ungrateful whimp who complains and then dump you aside, i wont.

& i dont understand why half the time you are saying that about me lo.

If i were to do that i wont spend thousands bringing you out on dinners, which in fact, is very sincerely of me wanting to bring you out, to somewhere nice. I really meant it lor. -oo-

I could have earned half a balenciaga. Just so u know, but i find it a point.

Even if it means you shouting at me half the time. I'll just eat mine and u eat yours. invisible wall in front of us to filter the sounds off. Nice as that. No conflict. Seriously. I hate people shouting at other people, people shouting at me and more people shouting at more people. When i get angry, i try to look annoyed and keep quiet.

My point is, i'm just very jaded of all those shouting ok. ll just try to do my own things nicely and don't touch u. just don't touch u so we can all avoid this all over again.

2011-07-01T13:27:00.002+08:00

Hi world. i have 1 1/2 hour before i need to start getting ready and pack my stuffs. I'm bored like fuck seriously. Cos all my shows are downloading like snail speed. & i can't finish watching the ones i downloaded because i can easily finish 1 season in one day. & i'm keeping it for aussie when i'm friendless and bored as usual.

Like all of a sudden, i'm starting to feel leaving Singapore isn't that much of a big deal anymore. I can't wait to leave. GOSH. technically speaking it's just 12 more days away to leaving this place of misery. LIKE ANYONE CARES. I think i have only one bff and one bf in my life that was actually worth contacting for my remaining days. LOL. exciting much.

Actually, after 19+ years of my life, i still feel i'm not that incline to meet new people. I'm very happy to be in my own world with 1 bff and 1 bf. Happy as that. All that i love interacting with people and meet new people, probably just pops out during interviews. Let me get this straight, I don't reject, but i'm not the kind to make the first move to make the acquaintanceship progress. If you don't hang out with me, i just couldn't care less k. I love staying at home and whining about how bored i am, without actually doing anything to improve the situation. Thats funny cos fat asks me all the time why don't i hang out with my friends.

My reply, forever as always "i have no friends" (Y)

& having lesser friends = going out lesser = spending lesser money = having more money

This post is so irrelevant, my life is so no not worth mentioning in it's current status. Just leave me to rot.

Goodbye world.

2011-06-18T02:13:00.006+08:00

Can you please tell me why bulldogs are so ridiculously CUTEEEEEE.

zomg

2011-06-18T02:01:00.002+08:00

I NEED MONEY!!! CAN YOU PLEASE DROP FROM HEAVEN.

I'M SPENDING 1K ON AVERAGE EVERY SINGLE DAY. I'M SO SCREWED. ONCE IT'S JULY. I'LL BE SPENDING 5K A MONTH. PILING DEBTS OF 120K BY 2012. GOD SAVE ME. HOW CAN I EVER CLEAR ALL THESE SKY HIGH DEBTS.

On a happier note. I got myself a macbook pro. so happy for myself. Sort of my first laptop. if you considered the old mac to be "nobody want to use, then give me one" & i paid it for myself ok. So proud of myself.

OMG i love my macbook pro. the old one is fucking shitty. It's 5 -6 years already. I KNOW.

2011-06-11T21:21:00.000+08:00

My sincere apologies for not searching for information on google and asking you as my personal trip advisor. How dumb of me. It’s like me thinking that YSL caters for plus size. I see that sentence as intellectually offensive, and after my very intellectual debate between me myself and I,I have come to a strong conclusion that, having said such a sentence may also prove your lack of EQ, like how I lack mine by saying I want to stay alone in a foreign country.

Well, I appreciate how helpful in front of others you may seem, but it yet proves a point to me that, nice people are nice because they are not nice. 2^nd time in my life to judge people wrongly. Proud to say I have always been very cautious about nice people, but well, I have to learn from my mistakes.

I must say that you are definitely perfect for the job. Outstanding for the job. The grasp of words from alive become dead, dead become alive, got dinner become got breakfast. How skillful. I guess I lost that round by not asking you to refer to the info that’s printed to you, when you came to me with questions. “Well, you should check the stack of paper then. I mean I don’t understand why do I have to print so many copies of that when you don’t read and ask me for info when you can get it all there. I’m not your personal advisor for today you know”

Well, as if seating in the middle, absorbing sounds wasn’t enough, some extra one have to prove your existence by emphasizing that I have been asking too much questions as if she was my personal advisor. I suggest you should continue absorbing sounds and shutup. Well since you are having a hard time coping with the rising inflation LOCALLY. I suggest we shouldn’t even touch about overseas for you. You can move to Malaysia instead.

Let me get this clear my question was: “well then how much is it to take a train from Brisbane to Sydney”

Is it that hard? Well if you didn’t realize I actually know google a long time back, if not for that I wouldn’t even have heard of AUSTRALIA.

I don’t see personal opinions wrong, but I don’t see why you should enforce it on me. It’s my own money, and if I choose to spend more of money on studio apartments instead of sharing with people, its basically my own choice. I guess for you, you should worry about your utilities for next month in Singapore.

Wait, have you studied overseas b4? Oh ok. I’m sorry that your opinion wouldn’t applicable yet again.

3 points for you to stay silent and stop por-ing lam pa.

Finally, I hate myself for not being able to speak up especially when I’m flaming inside. And when I come to the screen knnbccb just flies out. I don’t actually use that btw, probably less than 3 times in my life. Just to say. But fuck I just gave an awkward face, walk away and sit in a corner. I just need half of zhiwei’s bitchiness I can slap you up down left right already. Damnit. But then again. I don’t wish to cause a scene with you just 30 minutes before the whole thing ends. But then again, I could use that attention.

Deep down inside you just want to feel superior because of seniority factor, They just like to step on those whom they can, just because being 1 century older, it makes you look wiser.

For now, I don’t seem to have much of a choice, I just have to suck all the shit, stay as an undergraduate until next year.

2011-05-31T12:53:00.003+08:00

a rather life changing weekend.

So i've got this weird 1cm thingamajig in my cervixs and an extra PCO syndrome that comes along with it. It's quite obvious that my hormones are not being quite themselves for this past 2years or so. But then it sucks to know the fact that something is going to happen to you physically and that's not very pleasant.

It isn't that serious as a matter of fact but now that a day has passed. I'm beginning to be feel the after effect. I'm quite afraid that there might be more complications. Quite. I have to get that damn thing cut off.

It's really not that bad initially. Having an extra lump of i have no idea whats that gives me the privilege to get it my way. When people complain about how sucky their life is. I'll shoot back with a "i have a 1cm tumor inside me and a weird PCO syndrome and i'm not complaining. so whats your problem, please shutup."

Its not a big deal to have my right ovary infertile. Then after scanning through the report, my right one is twice the size of the left one. So it totally translates into 66.666666% lesser chances of being pregnant. Which is more than 50% and close to 70% (also known as an A2). Not that i want to get pregnant now. Pregnant women and babies scares me.

At most i'll get more hormonal changes, grow hair, become manly, grow a beard, get more fucking acne (walao damn sian), and finally evolved into a man when i come back to Singapore 1.5 years l8r.

"Hi, mom and dad, good news, its a boy"

Ouh. and probably get cervical cancer.

Worst Case Scenario.

At least without the comforting words or encouragement, why flood me with your insensitive comments about my medical condition. "Oh you are suay to get this" *continue ignoring me* Does it actually feel nice to say that? This whole incident gave me like a totally different perspective of life and relationships.

I don't think it's quite possible to continue my life having to swallow and stay silent with the verbal insults poured to me every single day. The point is that being me, i cannot stay silent. And if i don't i will nag and nag till the sun sets and i'll get 10times the verbal abuse back at me. So i have to keep my mouth shut so when i get verbal abuse x1 i wouldn't get it 10 times the power back. BUT I JUST CANNOT SHUTUP.

"You are a bitch"
"why do you call me a bitch, why? why do you have to say that? Do u know its awful? Do you feel joy in saying that?"
*Fumes* "You are a bitch x10 and because you are a bitch i'm going to record your whole conversation."

And you record me nagging. Does that appease you? Seriously? Oh lord. Why did this even happen. And because i don't want to get recorded. (Seriously damn fucking childish i should have just keep my mouth shut tightly with industrial tape from the start) i shut up, go to the toilet and hit the wall bang my head flush myself down the toilet bowl. I should have just kept quiet from the start right?

I get this weird lump in my cervix and a weird syndrome that causes me to have more than average male hormones (Seriously damn WTF LUH) & i have to suck up all the insensitive comments from you. Then again i'm not dying but it sucks be unhealthy luh ok.

It doesn't feel very good lo. Like hello look. people around me are healthy i am not i have a weird illness that i have to live with hormonal medication. Sucks ok. And the damn thing is making me feel nausea and its annoying, i wouldn't say its that bad. Just rather irritating. I know you don't have it. But you don't have to make me feel that way. Its not as if i'm dying its just that i have to schedule so many medical appointments now i have no idea if i can make it by the end of the month. & its pissing me off because i am leaving soon.

On the brighter note. Fuck Singapore, i'm gg to aussie soon.

2011-05-09T12:29:00.004+08:00

Oh shut up already.

Whats with all the likes.

Me: why do you like XXX?
A: i dunoe, he lost to WWW, tragic, what a lost of such great talent. *Continue liking rest of the pages that concerns him*
Me: So what did he do that inspires u?
A: well i'm not very sure too

STOP LIKING COS THAT'S WHAT EVERYONE'S DOING IT.

"Oh lord its a great loss. People are blind"

Shut the fuck up will you? Do you even understand what you are liking in the first place. I'm not dissing XXX, i'm just upset with those who don't know a shit and is trying to act like "you are the next big politician" trying to bombard my page with likes and more likes and more more likes.

Because XXX didn't get selected for class chairman, you feel sad for XXX, you ask him go be head prefect. DOESN'T WORK THIS WAY, especially not on facebook my dear.

Stop trying to know everything when you just read the whole GE through FB posts. Even when people get their facts through the papers and articles, they still have to use their brain to think for themselves.

Please provide more intellectual political views that supports your plain liking instead of.. Oh wait a minute, YOU ARE NOT OF LEGAL AGE YET! THAT'S WHY

I DON'T CARE AND I'M NOT PAID TO CARE YET.

oh well, at least i know everyone of them is paid to do what they do. I love my job, really, but I'm still paid to do it. Everyone has a price tag, what's yours?

THAT IS LIFE. ACCEPT IT

2011-04-13T17:08:00.008+08:00

蒲田／北京之旅

2011-04-11T23:21:00.001+08:00

YOU ARE MOTHERFUCKING ANNOYING. I LIKE TO LEAVE MY LUGGAGE OPEN WHILE PACKING THATS JUST MY PERSONAL CHOICE. YOU CAN LEAVE YOURS CLOSE WHILE U PACK STUFFS. WAIT LET ME THINK HOW DO U DO IT. OH. COS U DONT. OTHER PEOPLE PACK FOR U. KTHXBYE.

2011-03-25T00:52:00.010+08:00

i'm blogging because i want to grow old and look at my photos and laugh at myself.

2011-03-23T14:07:00.008+08:00

In need of manicure, pink hair, accessories, YSL, vivienne westwood rings, and a dimple piercing

2011-03-16T18:05:00.003+08:00

"my philosophy in life is that if you really want something and you work really hard, you will eventually get it"

seriously? u think that's true. I use to never believe why things are impossible for some. But seriously, circumstances play a major part too.

Its like a starving african kid wanting to drive a BMW. u think if he really work hard enough its possible?

Circumstances my dear, not everyone has the finances or opportunity to get it their way.

Believe in self satisfaction & no FML cos how about those living in poverty?

2011-02-25T15:00:00.003+08:00

inferiority complex. I'm highly delusional.

Macau on Monday.

Note to self: keep reality in check.

I need moneyyyyyy. Someone please offer me a job!

Can u believe it "friendster"' is still over there >>>>> LOL joke of the year.

2011-02-12T22:06:00.000+08:00

I'm damn disgusted with the world including myself. Just because of a small setback that I decide to screw my whole life now.

I'm not even thinking of staying right now.
Bye Singaporee.

2011-02-06T05:11:00.002+08:00

two reasons why people should not bang into me.

1. I'm everybody's favourite stereotyped gender for driving

2. I still have my P plate on. (Which i'm not intending to take it out. I love my P plate love me)

So please be gentle.

You do not come crashing towards my passenger seat for no reason. Because if you want to cut my lane, you should meet the following requirements below.

1. be in front of me

2. be behind me

why bother cutting my lane when i am beside u. you dont crash to drive. and u dont drive to crash and and make people crash too.

Fucking insane. My car flew. like flew out. okay. maybe i did go alittle hard on the steering. But hello. my car went out of control just to avoid u banging into me. Of course, probably a little spamming on the middle finger after that but still abit angsty and shocked okay!

Not enough. while my vehicle spins out of control, want overtake me. plus dont want to queue up to turn, stop in the middle of the road to cut queue. BLOCK ME. BLOCK MY WAY. STOP IN FRONT OF MY CAR.

You think what initial D ah. fuck u. Get a life man. I still need mine if you think yours is probably as insignificant as an ant.

I try my best not to kill ants unless they irritate me so. maybe you can degrade to be Phickuntiatus instead. TYVM. & stop trying to crash into other people too. Its not very nice.

Driving is to get from one point to another not a competition on bayfront ave. Some reckless driver, you think you formula one ah.

2011-02-01T19:16:00.003+08:00

I WANT a

Vintage Chanel, Dr Martens, Nude Chanel polish, La Mer watch, Miu Miu heels, Balenciaga, Tory Burch Flats, Hermes Scarf, Disney Couture & YSL rings, Heart Print tights, Disney Couture necklace, Moschino watch.

Note to self: Call sing post to check up on the status of my vintage gucci.

Good job xiaoyun for mopping the whole floor for 2 hours today.

shall dream about the Macau/HK trip. Hope its possible.

khappynewyearthx&bai

2011-01-16T23:27:00.009+08:00

Introducing my most awesomeee vivicam

Date is kinda a annoying shall remove it.. soon, when i know how to. :B

2011-01-16T02:05:00.005+08:00

Its been like 4 months since i'm still awake at this ungodly hour. Sad to say, seems like my healthy lifestyle for a change did nothing to my extremely weak stomach right now. Stomach hurts like crap for the past 3 months. DAMNIT IT SUCKS. BIG TIME. Plus its like the first time i actually want to visit the doctor and get a god damn Xray. My body is failing me. You see, things change when you hit your 19th Birthday, aka one step closer to death. Hello.

Anyway, I cannot help but to like broadcast my awesome CNY shopping. Fucking awesome i swear.

$2 studded beige dress for chu yi (i think i'm damn awesome)

$2 & $5 F21 and Rubi rings

$15 light blue cardigan (Darker than light blue blue, seriously cannot believe it)

$15 Straw hat (LOL damn act one)

$15 Bag

$2 Mobile & Camera "leather" pouch

$2 for 2 screen protectors

$19 Belt (ex lo. Dunoe whats gotten into me)

$32 Heels

$79 Kimono Cardigan!!!!!! (Wait so NONG finally got sales! from $120 to $79. LOL~!)

I think my buys too awesome luh exp the $2 dress and $2 and $5 rings.

2010-12-22T13:01:00.004+08:00

Whats the purpose of a academic counseling service when all the information they provide is to ask me to approach IDP.

I'm asking you if any past TP students have been able to make it to respective universities even if they didn't meet the entry requirement. You tellsing me to check the minimum requirement for university entry. I NO EYES CANNOT SEE ISSIT. If it on the internet. It is apparent that i should be able to get hold of the information personally and not to be sending you such questions.

& you took close to 2 weeks to give me a less than 3 sentence reply. NAISE TRY. IDP replied the next day or next hour. NAISE TRY.

I wonder how much of my polytechnic tuition fees have been funding such departments.

2010-12-11T01:02:00.003+08:00

i'm devastated about my academic achievements. My incompetency have led to my lost of NEW SOUTH WALES. WHY I NEVER STUDY HARD ENOUGH!!!!

2010-12-06T22:40:00.004+08:00

REGARDING THE LAME CARTOON CHARACTER PROFILE PIC.

I seriously don't give a bloody shit.

First, everybody is spamming on the news feed begging everyone to change their profile pic into cartoon characters they love. Cause according to their very reliable source, its for charity. (Or perhaps the fun of it, that sounds alot better y'know)

Second. phiedophle alert! (Once again by very reliable sources)

Next thing you know. BAMM. charity org comes out declaring that they should not be the ones taking credit for the whole phenomenon.

EGG ON THE FACE~!!!

Seriously. WHICH ONE IS REAL. balls. i dont really care. But for the fun of it. Its kinda cute to see all the funny characters i have long ago forgotten. Mine is super not innovative one. A PSYDUCK. oh well for a moment i wanted a plankton.

I dont really care much about the phidopile thing. seriously. Someone can make the cartoon character up. Another can also bring it down. "The power of facebook, it's just like that" Some fabulous quote manxz.

My conspiracy theory is that people just wants to prove ~~the influential capability of facebook~~ that humans are sheeps.

(Adapted from: http://www.sheep101.info/flocking.html) & feel free to get your 101 info's on homosapians there too.

TADAH~!! You've proved your point. Now just leave my news feed alone.

2010-11-21T23:50:00.001+08:00

1.88 OMG. 188 lehhhhzxz!!!

2010-11-20T00:11:00.004+08:00

so i was rewatching it started with a kiss. OMGZXZX like wuddahell. The last time i watched, i was 15. that jiang zhi shu guy was damn freaking cute. Although i prefer the curly hair that time. but the long straight hair is still kinda cute yaknow. now i watch omg still very cute. hahaha. I don't give compliments that often. But. omgaaadd. the show is so damn cute lurhhhszxz feel so secondary school. Where everything is so simple and and it's just very happy like it is, the simple things in life. not really loving the guessing what you are thinking now feeling. but still its very positive and nice and happy with rainbows and singing birds.

I used to (& probably still atm) like guys who are of higher intellect than myself + MUST WEAR SPECS (god knows why about the specs part. maybe can fake the brainy aspect but apparently it was since when i was in primary school so hahahaha). But who knows about relationship at that time, it was just "like" in silence. omg damn freaking cute. Though I'll probably choose "find them attractive" instead of "like" now.

Then i liked guys with permed hair when i was in secondary school like wuddafuck. LOL. but still quite cute. Then just like any other ordinary people. Its a phase that i have to go through, i wanted a japanese bf. HAHAHAH so damn funny luh.

But now i see like omg he's damn cute. he got nice hair and he is insanely tall but no specs but very very smart in the show. so very cute. like any other girls going crazy over some random korean guy. I choose to find someone who speaks a common language. You see, how do you find a person cute when he opens his mouth and start blabbering in some unknown language that just sound like vulgarities to me. but well. i dunoe. after 4 years, i rewatched the show and he still looks very cute lur. Apart from him being cute i think its probably the storyline that shaped my opinion.

Can't be like he's acting like some ulu mountain caveman right. By then. this post and 80% of its content would be redundant.

Life is full of secrets and lies now. I forget i used to not be so angsty.

imma wanna go back to when i am 15 naozxz.

damnitzx he's still very cutezxz. In da show that is. Is he actually gay in real life?

2010-11-07T00:52:00.004+08:00

an issue that is bugging me. Secrets and betrayal. Somehow this makes sense. How could you keep a secret from the person that is being betrayed. Its not about how morally correct you are by keeping the secret that someone leaked to you. Have you wondered how the betrayed party wants to know how his/her secret is out by that someone?

Letmme guess, the person told you not to tell me that he/she told you the secret. But the secret is about me. And when i learn about the secret from you. I am not suppose to know the person who told you my secret cos you have to protect that asshole's identity. Cause omg. he/she just told another person who could potentially have spread to another person who could again potentially spread to another person and the cycle goes on. Call me childish. Cause xiaoyun is what i am.

You revealed the secret but not the identity. Still, the secret is out.

The reason you are hidden in silence is because your significance is so unworthy, you are unspoken of. My intentions are clear that you shouldn't even stay in the "past", it's obvious you don't exist in the present as well. Since what's out is not a secret, it shall be a regret.

Note to self again: you don't even exist in my past.

True to say two can keep a secret if one of them is dead. So zip it, You are dead in my book. Period.

p/s: i'm not pissed that you didn't tell me who it was. Not exactly wasn't but it was a tad bit upsetting. I was pissed with who you got the info from.

2010-10-28T23:42:00.002+08:00

I saw this guy that can't stop walking back and forth while on the phone. it reminds me of you.

2010-10-25T23:24:00.002+08:00

dad called a pagoda a flamingo. hahahahaha best

2010-10-20T20:52:00.003+08:00

I'm happy NAO. I really am (:

2010-10-12T23:40:00.001+08:00

it sucks to be sick and absent when you have something that is so important to you at work.

2010-10-02T00:41:00.001+08:00

Seriously, what the fuck is your god damn problem.

I’m too pissed beyond words I have to search for alternate vocabulary to express my fustration

While I was making my way to work this morning on bus 23. This bus captain, a Chinese national, very obvious cause of his accent, was trying his best to get everybody up the bus so he kept saying “Please move to the back, thank you” How polite, isn’t it. Still got thank you.

So apparently, this motherfucker/cow/ass/piece of shit/inexistence life form said the worst thing I ever heard in my life.

“ Can’t you see the bus is overloaded. Standing ratio is more than 2:1. Everybody’s pack like sardine. Still ask people to move in. We also rushing for time to work right. Still ask people to board. Already pack like sardine, overloaded already. How can you ask people to move in” and he goes on and on repeating that the bus is overloaded in Chinese, English, Chinese, English, tamil hindi, malay, French, Finnish. Or whatever thing. He keep translating sardine as sa-ding-yu.

Then still not enough “I going to call your head office ask them why overloaded already still want people to board. How can keep asking people to move in. I want complain to head office about you. You go tell your head office why SBS want cut cost or what. You don’t know how to call I call for you” nag nag nag nag…

Then suddenly, wah full force 2 kay po kiah join in the merry. Scold scold scold say they rushing for work why still ask people to board.

WHAT IN THE WORLD IS YOUR PROBLEM?!?!?!

You should just disappear into thin air. Just like that. POOF AND GONE

The bus captain just doing his job right? He’s just trying to get people up the bus right. Yes, you are on the bus. Yes. You are rushing of time. But have you thought of the people trying their best, standing outside the bus, carrying that little hope of being able to board the bus they waited for 16 fucking minutes. So you happily SEATING on the bus trying to blow your throat off shouting at a person who is merely trying to do his job. And along I actually appreciate the little effort of the bus captain standing up and asking those buay zi dong Singaporeans (typical) to shove their butts to the rear end.

He is trying to get everybody up the bus so people can go to work on time. You this selfish ass just care about yourself being late for work. When you are SEATING down. Ok emphasizing on the seating down part. YOU SEAT DOWN ON THE GOD DAMN SEAT ALSO NOT YOU SQUEEZING YOU KAO PEH KAO BU SO MUCH FOR WHAT YOU TELLLSSSSSING ME. We are the ones squeezing in. AND I AM NOT COMPLAINING. I don’t mind moving in for the sake of bringing another person onboard not that I am trying to act like one kind soul or what. Although at times people taking their time boarding the bus piss me off when I am rushing for work. BUT FUCK YOU NO. I understand the agony of waiting for 16 fucking minutes and knowing that the next bus is going to arrive another 16 minutes later.

So fuck you molecule.

Oh and to the person who said “ iya china one luh” to the bus captain. If you are Chinese then you should be reminded that your forefathers come from China. Even if your’s is from Malaysia. It still comes from China.

Inferring, a person “iya china one luh” isn’t equivalent to you, a Singaporean more superior. Although they may have a different view about civilization through their actions, it doesn’t mean that you don’t translate your uncivilized-ness through your constant complains.

Anyway, if not for them you got HDB flats to stay, got bus to go work? No right. If its not for them. You wont have your fat ass stuck to the bus. So why are you YOU YOU complaining.

I almost. Swear to god. ALMOST (ok maybe I abit scared) wanted to shout back at the 3 mother asses. You 3 piece of fucking shit shut the fuck up and deepthroat a baseball bat can anot. Ok maybe I’ll probably just say its not the bus captain fault and stuff and censor the baseball bat. If I see this again. I WILL. DEFINITELY WILL YOU MOTHERCOWS.

So pissed off I missed breakfast.

2010-09-21T21:39:00.012+08:00

Little india/ bugis trishaw today

Hot like crazyy! mad crazyy. but trishaw was an a interesting experience. can't deny my intern is a good start for now! (:

Singapore river cruise/ clarke quay/ boat quay/ museum/ marina bay sands yesterday

approximately 15km by foot and a couple more on the cruise with a cough, flu and feverrr!!! feet's driving me crazyy..

had a funny lift incident that afternoon. 15th floor button don't seem to work. some Caucasians behind seem to be mumbling something like the lift doesn't operate to the 15th floor. Ignoring the fact, so we thought that the button was spoiled and tried pressing and holding onto the 15th floor button. but it just went back down to the first floor. MEGA FAIL.

2010-09-12T14:55:00.002+08:00

not studying cause the mathematical aspect of gaming just reduce my interest in studying. super minimal studying on my part cause i just want a D. see easily satisfied! good right.

after conducting a detailed analysis using a very sophisticated, well recognized formula, otherwise known as probability, i have concluded that i just have to study 4 calculation questions, 5 questions in depth and read through the rest. & that will be sufficient to pass. sounds good (Y)

golden rule of passing with a D :

dont study everything

feel like some genius mathematician. lol

2010-09-11T00:11:00.004+08:00

my first sunflower. damn cute luh!!!!!!!!

& home alone for a week made me realise technology's utmost significance to mankind. Mr Percy Lebaron Spencer you are damn fucking awesome. u made me a best friend for breakfast, lunch and dinner.

2010-09-09T01:58:00.005+08:00

hell week with 4 exams in a row. that's not all, i still have to top that up with the last paper on a monday with total recognition that 2/3 of the cohort goes into complete celebration, marking the end of the last block of exams in their tertiary education. So much for taking gaming.

No. i'm not suppose to complain cause i'm actually in favour of this subject. & it annoys me so much because i like this subject so much, but yet the already shitty coursework grades highlight, caps, underline and bolds the the incompetency of my intellectual.

isn't it only right for interest to contribute to success?!!!

no. maybe i'm just plain dumb.

MICE is keeeeeling me nao i needa do something else to relieve myself from suffocating on piles of lecture notes. need to take a breather desperately. cause today that was yesterday, yesterday is over, its a different day and tommorow will be a better day. typing bunch of bullshit right nao. & its damn stupid. cause if u realize, its from a lyrics. i'm going bonkers.

I NEED A RRIFEEEE!!!!

yup. go and study nao ng xiao yun. kthxbai

2010-08-23T16:58:00.012+08:00

These cupcakes are so going to happen on my Christmas celebration menu. together with turkey, spaghetti hopefully some seafood marinara, log cake, champagne and candles. awwww. can't wait for Christmas. lol wtf man, still got 3 more mths.

love this face

2010-08-17T00:45:00.001+08:00

I'm officially suffering from clinical depression.

Some university depression questionaire says so.

2010-08-15T23:22:00.002+08:00

me: you know hor. big car actually very hard to drive

flakkz: that's a lorry

flakkz: anti- facebook people very little maybe even lesser than 1%. and i'm one of them. Anti-facebook people already losing the war.

xiaoyun: but you got facebook

flakkz: ya. must spy on them

2010-08-09T01:13:00.004+08:00

Turns out I wasn't who i thought i could be. One last time for me to express my disappointment in handling my emotional attachments.

Yesterday night wasn't me. I'm a emotional wreck now and thats going to stop cause i feel like a fucking whimp. I'm going to admit defeat here graciously like what i am trying to become. I give up. I'm not fighting back. I'm not trying to win. I'm not going back for revenge. But neither am i grateful for the 700 days perhaps lesser cause for the bullshit i get, its really not worth the 2 words. I lost for the first time in 18 years.

Thanks for the flaming btw. I didn't say a proper thank you and left.

& about the occasion. I felt bad about it, but i didn't lie, i just didn't disagree with the fact that it wasn't my 18th.

Happy 18th Birthday Xiaoyun

you are so self deluding.

2010-08-03T22:19:00.002+08:00

I'm being as lazy as a worm. Not going anywhere far without personal transportation.

The realization of public transport just significantly reduce my interest in leaving my house. Not spoilt. Just that its among other factors that shapes my decision to head out. Which is pretty ironic since i don't drive. I don't luh. I just don't.

But I must get a personal self-owned transportation by 23 maybe 24, or maybe 25. It can look small round and pink, probably a beetle. But if its large, black and cool looking. i seriously don't mind a CLK anyway. ok perhaps not that large. hahahaha. fat hope xiaoyun.

&& TTBFF is probably right about the candybar phone theory. I should stop the habit and be happy with the new bright colour LED screen and wonderful apps. You were a habit but this habit's got to stop and i have to learn to accept reality. I finally lived up to the day where i decide that you should go. Back to where you started out from and stay there as memories forever. The heartbreaks as though the broken screen, the pain you left as though the fallen swarovskis. They left me lost, defeated and weary like the worn off 24k gold buttons. You left a spot in my heart that can never be erased, that can never be repaired like my spoilt touchscreen. It hurt me so hard everytime i look at you. You'll stay well in my mind. But now it's time to say goodbye. I'll move on and let you go. Goodbye V8 lux. goodbye forever.

Which is the reason why i am getting a new phone on friday. cool shitballzzz manzz.

I need red hair red hair red hair. My hair is screwed. its not straight cut anymore its grown into a indescribable monstrous looking shit. miss my long permed hair.

Fireworks anyone on national day??? Lonely soul here.

2010-08-02T22:40:00.012+08:00

yay. eventful week after a long rest. Needa stay really occupied before weird thoughts kick in.

Monday was stay at home day

Tuesday was some profitable mahjong and k session

Wednesday was an awesome ladies night with a little fight

Thursday was steamboat and arcade. Bought LGM bolsters. 2 of them in fact. happyyyyyyy

Friday was a very very expensive day. Minimal drinks and a long walk back to orchard with some heart to heart talk. LOLWTF. yes & like what cy said you should deep throat a baseball bat.

Saturday was yogurt meal, movie and a little fun after that.

Turkish meal was hmm. 3 years and the restaurant's still there. Some weird ayran drink which tastes like salted and sour plain yogurt and kebab dish with yogurt sauce. Missed 40 minutes of sorcerer apprentice but still a cool show. No fireworks for the night. My phone's halfway dead with a spoilt screen.

Sunday was a healthy mahjong session in the afternoon

Work up real late. mahjong session at 230 but reached at 4. winnings of 1.50. and no. i am not pi gu dong stop calling me that

reach home at 5- 6 in the morning everyday. I'm going to die early if i continue like this. Need some major rest now & some time alone.

2010-07-24T23:36:00.001+08:00

爱心面包 for breakfast. LOL.

& loss of $4. -oo-

2010-07-24T03:09:00.002+08:00

Fuck. It was until just now that i realise i get very grumpy when i see happy endings. Last episode of The Mysterious of Love pisses me off big time. I practically get upset when she agreed to marry him. Like what the bloody fuck is wrong with her?

How can this thing happen in real life you tell me? I'm complaining as much as another Taiwan drama i use to watch.

I am angsty like the whole world says so. So i'm going to KOON.

bad show.

2010-07-22T20:22:00.001+08:00

imy :(

2010-07-22T11:45:00.003+08:00

I don't really like to express my emotional incapability but my life now is just mentally discouraging.

2010-07-20T01:11:00.004+08:00

Painted my nails!!!! Despicable me minions!!!! ahahah. ok. i must be damn bored. Only the left is done cos i'm right handed -oo-

Cy's birthday 'celebration' yesterday + major bitching session.

Me and Wy got cute little LGM shower gel. We practically paid for the plastics since the contents smell rather queer.

Cakes from intercontinental and dinner at Ma Maison. Kindof the usual place with escargots for starters. I realise once we start eating at somewhere, we tend to stick to it. like Sun with Moon and MOF. but MOF is retarded. So we were talking like non-stop until i finish my portion of the cake, my voice changed. Significantly. I mean i understand excessive alcohol makes me sound like a transgender. But the dark chocolate cake with minimal brandy? I dont get it. Now what am i going to do about wednesday night then. Good 2 hours of dinner and the awesome company was so awesome that i forgot awful stuffs that happened in my life. Not that awful, but disturbing events in my life.

Beginning to feel damn used and its annoying the shit out of me. hur. Some negligence on my part but denial plays a huge role too. Weighed and analyzed all facts, i even came up with an action plan but i just can't help but to feel like an idiot. Seriously speaking, when or why did it evolved into simple and innocent, when initially i was affirmative that this was personal entertainment. I lost and godamnit I thought i'm good at this and the outcome was within my control and of course in my favour luh. But fact is that i kindof knew that this was a tough one from the start because i cannot figure out anything. But as the picture got clearer it turned a fucking 360 degrees once again. Once again that is. But well, as a pessimistic being for situations like this, i told myself it was different but deep inside optimism thrives. but fuck yeah. Wrong guess. And to think this will be in my game was retarded. I got a huge F slapped onto my face for the first time and this is pissing me off. I finally understood the agony in others, so much for karma. But it doesn't work this way in my context. When did i deviate away from my scheming self! I'm getting rusty at this, but losing it is not going to happen. Die bitches. You will pay.

Mahjong today: deficit of $6.40

LOL

I sound like a fucking bitch. But there's more to learn especially with zhiwei the perfect bitch around. Oh and yes. & zhiwei's little bitch chernyu. awwww.

I'm egggggcited about 30 July and 1 August. I've got dates!!! Finally!!!!

Note to self: Find video of Zhiwei's squeaky voice video & a sec 4 photo of Chernyu. LOl

2010-07-14T01:50:00.000+08:00

Googled fling and the first search that came out:

Web definitions for fling
throw with force or recklessness; "fling the frisbee"
wordnetweb.princeton.edu/perl/webwn - Definition in context

nice.

2010-07-14T00:35:00.003+08:00

I have this weird old feeling. It’s between bored, confused, troubled, regret and weird. No idea why it will turn out like this and no idea why things would have turned out so easy for me. I’m being a selfish bitch right now cause I have completely no idea what I want. I took three weeks to think for an answer and still haven’t made up my mind. Its like a decision almost made but in a split second its back to square one. 1 hour bus ride home and I still couldn’t come out with an answer So pissed with myself right now. My life is a huge dilemma. & this is bullshit. You will learn xiaoyun, you will learn. You will not look back.

Note to self: I need to be more occupied

&& energy flows is not about a butterfly flying up and down and got squashed. Its an exceptionally emotional melody that is so exceptional you dont understand how exceptional it is. You can go play your twinkle twinkle little star instead.

2010-07-11T22:25:00.001+08:00

I messed up my life again. again.

2010-07-01T04:54:00.000+08:00

just a little bit more time. i'll be back

2010-06-26T14:52:00.002+08:00

I'm blogging with the iPad. Seriously I still don't get it. The only reason I use this is because it loads 10times faster than that retarded MacBook. I want an touch instead. iPad is overrated.

2010-06-15T01:14:00.002+08:00

Today was damn awesome. Crazy and all that shouting. We should seriously..... do more of this more often. Too bad no clubs are open today. DAMNZ

I love my life now x 1000000000000000000000000 since last week.

I hope things will never change.

I LOVE YOU. MY LIFE

2010-06-05T11:20:00.003+08:00

Bcos alchohol numbs all pain

2-3 cups of chivas WITH mixer & i'm a goner. When did i fair so badly now.

2010-06-04T00:55:00.000+08:00

took the longer way home today. There was a smell of year 2008, the 4am walk back home.

2010-06-03T17:29:00.001+08:00

my life is a fucking mess

2010-05-28T21:41:00.002+08:00

I can joke around with you. But seriously it doesn't mean i have no feelings.

So just keep your mouth shut.

2010-05-16T16:29:00.003+08:00

My dad refuse to let me drive alone because he says i drive too fast.

HELLO

who the bloody fuck drives at 60++ 70 km ON FUCKING PIE when the speed limit is 90.
who the bloody hell always drive behind a van driving at 60km on a fucking highway.
WHO THE FUCK DRIVES AT 60 ON A FUCKING HIGHWAY!
thats the speed limit for normal road.

Thia is ridiculous. I'm not exactly good at parking and you can say that. But i do not drive fast! I can only park a vios thats all. & in fact i have always thought that i can park very very well. But that retarded car is so retarded it doesn't have an exact way to park. Sometimes it does park in. sometimes it doesnt.

I am going to get a bike license and get a fucking bike instead.

Somebody remind me to throw my drivers license away, since it is of no use.

2010-04-28T23:23:00.003+08:00

u know that feeling when u get annoyed talking with somebody with no particular reason? Yes. It feels like things are not turning out as good as before now.

2010-04-23T00:25:00.004+08:00

How often do i get flowers like these this days.

But after holding them close to my nose for few seconds did i realise i am allergic to them. Oh well.

2010-04-16T01:53:00.004+08:00

I really want a jumbo 2.55, a city, a petit noe & a simone camille. The one that is at 480, probably 700 after you convert it. Cause thats the cheapest -oo-

D: actually i should be grateful that i get 3 full meals a day and a nice bed to sleep in.

i'll probably go look for some trash and do some patchwork instead of spending some 700 on a bag that people would probably say i got it as a souvenir from a tribe or something.

But i swear those are really crazzzzy.

no. i should be grateful that i got a nice aircon and fan together with a nice bed.

& a nice picture to stare at even when i don't get it.

I know my taste is up in space

2010-04-12T01:18:00.003+08:00

Seriously i dont know whats wrong with me. I just don't speak the skimpy language. Its not about something that just happened. Its not directed to anybody at all. None of them. Its just a honest personal opinion that i know i'm gonna get some personal opinions back at me. But its just what's going through my mind right now.

I get disturbed. disturbed by, lets make it vague. I use the term people who dresses provocatively.

I dont get it. I seriously dont! Ok. Maybe i do. Maybe i'm just trying to be a bitch who just seek solace in bitching about every single thing. Yes. i really think i am! But its like the next most important thing besides oxygen that requires us to live on.

Well, skimpy is a very subjective word according to my defination. i'm still hesitant to mark my words. I'm afraid i'll get personal attacks right back at me. So i will continue emphasizing SUBJECTIVE.

For me, i might take dressing in a particular fashion on a daily basis a major factor. In fact, i deemed my understanding of skimpy to be alot more lenient than your mother. Trust me, that may still be an understatement.

Of course this does not imply to everybody. I mean, some people look good with a low v, or a short dress, but you don't look good with your undies right smack in my face! I totally get your point! I do! I understand that you are telling me that you are still in the right mind to remember to have them on! Point taken. So will you cover them up?

Come'on, showing the front and back everyday, thats just crossing the borders of skimpy. I can see you're heading full force to slutty. ha-ha. Wait, is there a difference?

Lets just let me look cool and try saying this for one time: "you might not be a whore, but you are wearing the uniform"

Oh-my did i just sound like your grandmother?

2010-04-12T01:13:00.000+08:00

come'on how can i be gone for long.

2010-04-04T01:03:00.001+08:00

bye world. goodbye. cya next time.

2010-04-03T17:00:00.002+08:00

Xiaoyun you can do better than this. You sure can

2010-04-02T17:49:00.001+08:00

You know seriously. I dont know how is my one year +++ months with a person who dont love me or dont even care if i am dead. complete waste of my time. All the crap promises are all bullshit

2010-04-02T03:24:00.005+08:00

This few days have been crazy.

at least this cheered me up abit.

thank you.

2010-03-27T21:11:00.009+08:00

i love the yawning one

2010-03-23T23:16:00.002+08:00

Some people just need to stop bragging about their wonderful self and emotions online. If its true so big fucking fat deal. Tell the GUYS out there, stop trying to be emotional virtually but perfectly alright off screen. But hey guess what? The whole world knows you are alright, so what is your reason for doing so?

Pathetic. Attention crazy. & a rude fella

I am freaking pissed off now.

2010-03-20T02:52:00.002+08:00

Sometimes people change so much that i couldn't even recognise them even when they are just in front of me. Its sad that even how hard you try to pull them back, they resist and continue to sway about in their own world. What happen to the old friendship we use to have. gone?

gone with with wind.

Only a few months without alcohol, and i'm starting to feel foreign about it. Its turning my body red. burning red with minimal intake. i'm starting to feel like my dad.

lalang today got me huge patches of rashes. my poor limbs.

2010-03-19T11:14:00.002+08:00

i'm starting to dread working life. The stirke of 6 is my only motivation in work.

why can't we just appreciate little things in life instead of slogging our lives all in the stake of money. But ironically enough, money holds a major factor why i'm still waking up at 7 every morning.

why is this post even needed anyway, now that i realise.

I'm off to enjoy my wonderful 4 days off.

2010-03-14T13:22:00.002+08:00

My dad bought this mac, but because of his inability to comprehend its complicated operating system. He decides to let this laptop rot for 1-2 years in a lonely corner. When it wa time for me to go to poly and said that i need a personal laptop, he opens it up, installed windows os and throws it to me.

After using a windows OS on my mac for 2 good years (it is now 3-4 years old) , my ram finally crashed, leading to my windows os refusing to start properly and closes as and when it likes. I decide to reformat my laptop and permanantly removing my good old windows xp that have been with me for 2 years. I was stuck at mac for a couple of days. And after some coaching by pok hua in areas like how to bookmark a page etc and etc.

I finally realise that actually mac os is quite good! always thought that its so complicated and boring cos windows looks colourful unlike mac which looks dull.

Although i'm still quite apprehensive about some unexplored functions. But i'm almost there now!!!! YAY

2010-03-14T00:50:00.002+08:00

fat says its ok if i do leave for a rich guy.

2010-03-08T16:07:00.001+08:00

Bored at work nao.

2010-03-05T09:26:00.003+08:00

passed with 12 points! yay. Super scary the night b4. Woke up at 5 to panic all the way to 8. knew i had to reach at 10 but i kept starring at the clock which shows 9.35. Thinking i have more than enough time. Just to realise i am going to be late b4 i left my house.

Strike kerb, parallel parking couldnt fit in and got an immediate failure mistake during the warm up.

But the test was bloody perfect. Nervous but not THAT nervous. Tester even skip abit of stuffs. I only have a problem with not looking at mirrors. Bloody awesome. I didnt even have points for blindspots. ^^

2010-02-24T02:50:00.003+08:00

I was hungry and crazy to think of whipping something up in the middle of the night with zero experience in the kitchen.

Amazingly it was like i've just fought a war

First, i on the oven. I wanted to make some boiled potatoes you see. And according to the observations of biz park western food auntie, who puts the potato into the oven, i decide to follow suit. So i search for some potatos and a potato shaver (I hate potato skins. they taste damn awful) and began shaving the potato. I almost had my skin sliced but whatever since they are still intact. I then placed it on an aluminium and into the oven.

I proceed to open the thing i thought was oh-so-easy. The campbell soup. FAIL. i spent 1247325987 hours on it to realise I CANNOT USE A FUCKING CAN OPENER. i tried and tried until i start to sweat!!!!! so i plug in the fan, and on the fan. The fan jerked, and shaked, spinned, and fall off the bloody ceiling. Instinctly i went to off the switch. Pick up the broken pieces and continue opening the can in a hot and stuffy environment, without the fan that is. -oo- FAIL. i manage to open 1/8 of the can leaving 7/8 of it still intact.

At this time, my potato in my oven was turning black so i went to take the potato out. The potato is HARD.. NOT SOFT like the ones i ate! then i thought i was so clever, that i finally figured out why biz park western stall calls it boiled potato.. BECAUSE it is BOILED! so i went to grab some water and submerge my already slightly browned potato in. I on the fire and leave it to BOIL.

I continue my efforts on the campbell can. This time my arms are already tired trying to open the bloody thing. >=( I decide to use a fork and spoon to gauge and shake the contents out instead of attempting to open the can. I manage to get quite a sum to make up 1/4 a bowl of soup. At least better than nothing right!!!!

This time, my potatos have been boiled and water's coming out from the thing and making some irritating sound to the fire. I off the fire and pour the water out. My potato is hard as ever. FUCK THE WORLD. Biz park boiled potatoes look good, soft, fluffy and awesome. WHY DOES MINE LOOK LIKE COCK! I gave up on the potato and left it to cool, maybe when it cools it'll turn soft.

Then i proceed to add water to the soup and placed it into the oven to spin for a couple of minutes until god knows why it starts to make splattering noises in my oven. -oo- i took it out... and its edible!!! FINALLY. so i drank the soup. But it taste horrible. Plain horrible. I just suck, even its just can food.

The potato looked the same before cooled and after cooled so i threw it away. while cleaning up i accidentally hit a HOUSEFLY with my finger. EEW. disgusting. So i just wiped and stuff and place everything in the sink and went back to my room.

I swear throughout the entire process i was thinking of my maid my maid my maid and fat. I hope my maid was awake. I hope fat was there to cook for me.

I need some cooking classes during the holidays.

2010-02-21T15:48:00.002+08:00

today's 21st febuary.

i've been studying for the past few weeks and i'm 90% done on management accounting! Awesome much.

Can't wait for exams to be over since i got tons of things i want to do like... Find a job, work, money, find more job, work, and more money. But first i need some jobs.

& i need to escape from Singapore. Feel like going somewhere outta this country. My mom's bugging me for an answer to go overseas with her. We shall see.

CNY is not that awesome all together. oh wells. So proud of myself for studying SO MUCH BEFORE HAND. i dont have to panic the day b4 the test. ^^

gickr.com animation

2010-02-15T21:14:00.002+08:00

With loser tbeteo@hotmail.com at the moment. YAWNZ

2010-02-15T01:37:00.003+08:00

I think i may have been curse to never ever in my life have a valentine. Sad. truth. Really.

At least i got a flower from a friend last year. I forgot to buy a flower for myself this year. But at least i've got lolipop from sophia. AWWW SO SWEET.

I promise i will never lead a loser life ever again. I will find one for next year, if not i'll go back to my nun club with the identity of "nuyoaix" and stay single forever for good.

I'm hungry. Shan't broad about some emo stuffs on chu yi. Ok it's chu er now. Shall go find some food. Ma tummy's growling!

2010-02-10T22:52:00.004+08:00

I want to be rich and powerful and so awesome that everyone will be scared of me and be nice to me.

As i was walking to starbucks today. There was this couple holding hands and walking towards me in the opposite direction. It was obvious that it was a narrow lane, so obviously you have to let go of your hands to let me cross. But no, in attempt to let me cross the guy walk towards the left and the woman move towards the right, being oh-so-bright, assuming i would be able to walk pass them right in the middle. Yea thanks. But wait, your hands are still in my way no-brainers.
Let go for a second so i can pass. Difficult? Hate lovey dovey couples. utterly disgusting. Better stop nao before i get flammed big time.

Anyway my arms so sooooo god damn tired out of the turning and turning. Which is in fact, very hard for me to turn. My hands slide off or in fact flew off the fucking thing few times when i was trying to. PHAIL. So i got laughed at a few times and had problems with gear changing after that due to my weak and flimsy arms.

So whats wrong with you hur.

My flimsy arms are flinging at you

2010-02-10T01:07:00.003+08:00

This chinese new year isnt going on so well. spent 2/3 of my allowance in 10 days. what am i going to do for the next 20 days! ZOMG SAVE ME. YES YES. cny is here so there'll be ang pao. But i will promise myself to only open the angpaos after the 15th day. So traditional right!!! & also save 100% of my angpao money so... to say...i'll still be be broke until the rest of the month.

Chinese new year here once again. Some love hate relationship. I love angpaos, gathering, seeing people you that you may only see once a year, mahjong, and oranges. Its a damn chinese feeling for me luh. just feel very happy about it. BUT bloody balls. Guess who's here?

AND... Here comes my relatives! Its the time of the year for COMPARISONS. hate it fucking hate it. Being in a neighbourhood school doesnt mean i'm dumb, being in poly doesnt mean i'm not clever. Its just because i choose not to go to JC. The word is NOT TO. i choose not to.

I wanted to dye my hair ash brown. But it goes back to comparisons and questions and questions from them. JUST my hair colour makes me think so much so you can see that how much this thing have impacted me. Although simple, yet very scheming. I may seem the not-so-smart-from-YOU-ALL but i'm sure i understand the true meaning behind a simple question. hmm for example... "have you eaten?" ha-ha. scheming aint you. Trying to start a little conversation with me.

I may be being paronoid. EVEN if that was not the case. I still have this low-self esteem in me for not being so clever FROM YOUNG where constant comparision is the case. I swear i've been living in world where whenever the night before cny, i have nightmares about people pointing and mocking at me. People just can't stop comparing others against me. Maybe not compare but take somebody else as a role model, study hard like them. bloody shit balls. I dont give a damn. I dont go for class, i use up all my absent chances, i take MC's when i feel like it, i dont study but still go for the test, and sometimes i really dread studying. SO WHAT. I'm like that. Stop asking me to follow XXX to study, to go to university and stuff. I dont freaking give a damn. I love to skip classes and to not study. & my role model is... lets see. My role model is.. SOPHIA ANG. i strive to be as slack as her. AHHAHAHAHAH

& to add on, clever aint the proper term. It is BOOK SMART. YES. book smart and clever is 2 different things. ok. Somehow similiar, but if you think enough IT IS NOT.

Hate being compared to "cleverer" people. So what if they are clever. Does that make you cleverer? NO. it doesnt! keeping comments to yourself is however, VERY CLEVER.

Anyway, off topic, but i thought i had really forgotten. But it turns out i didnt and the your presence still kinda scares me. GOD KNOWS WHY.

2010-01-31T22:09:00.002+08:00

So. Finally, i got defeated and i gave in.
I am officially at episode 6 of hai pai tian xin.
But i still dont understand. NICE MEH!?

Seriously speaking, for a 20 year old guy. Who the hell will leave a frekaing mushroom head.

& how in the world will there be such a nice guy.

Realistically speaking, fat will already be annoyed if i refuse to tell him something, not to say if i hit and box him non-stop.

Realistically speaking. who in the world will decorate a tree. Fat will be more contented to stay at home and sleep.

Reliastically speaking, relationships are not that sweet at all. In fact, being alone during valentine's day is a norm for me

& realistically speaking. WHO THE FREAKING HELL marry a person just after 3 years, and right after university.

If thats true. Someone marry me once i'm out of University please. Not to say i will definately be attending U. I want to. however may not be able to, with my ever declining GPA. Ya. but someone marry me please. preferably someone rich and has a mushroom head.

That is when everything is SO not realistic at all.

There is nothing like this n the world. We humans are born to suffer, fall sick and eventually die. Some people skip the fall sick part. But NOBODY escapes the die part. So yea. Life for me.

&& i just realise i went off topic again.

ok. back on track, i still think scheming, detective, crime shows are for me. I'm not a very lovable kind of person. In fact i'm very schemeing and unloved. LOL!

& of course you will never know if i am scheming or not, because i am scheming. & if i am scheming you will never know if i am scheming or not!
get it? NVM.

After reading what i just wrote, i realise i can go make a book of qoutes or something.

"Xiaoyun, A book of qoutes"

AWESOME.

Anyway that got me thinking about how weird i am. I even thought of being a historian 2 years back. WEIRD

Ok. another thing i want to talk about is how horribly shocking a person can morph into, within in a span of a few months?

Sometimes people are so digusting. They are friends and suddenly they just disapear from your lives. Or something like that.

They become very scheming, and sometimes i even wonder if they plot to bypass you. Trying to get attention or prolly trying to use their weak spots to gain that bit of empathy. No?

I dont say i am a good old honest person or the best friend kindof person. But at least, when you plot, dont get caught.

ANOTHER GREAT QOUTE BY NGXIAOYUN

"when you plot, dont get caught"

zomg i cannot deny the fact that i'm amazing.

2010-01-30T18:46:00.003+08:00

some kindof a complicated relationship. LOL

anyway, me and soph were analyzing about this situation, where we came to a conclusion about our very complicated relationship. HAHAHA

Steamboat on wednesday night was good. Never had that much prawns in one night. Drinking and games after that, and at 3++am everybody left.

Culture exhibition was HELL BORING. our displays look -oo-. We got tons of last minute issues & we ended up rather screwed. But still. its over.

Lets see... this post is very very boring. in need of money at the moment. shall go think of some money making ideas like robbing a bank or something. anyone wna be my accomplice?

2010-01-26T04:43:00.001+08:00

I'm so bored right now! omgz. its 4.33 ok. lets see. letme list what i've done today!

woke up at 1230
watched some HK drama till 345
changed and out for driving 400
driving 425
left and went home 610
reached home 640
finish bathing 710
start to do FEM ppt 845
finish stuffs, downloading song 940
fat called to talk at 1020
talked till 1215
finish reading crs report for interview 120
goodnight msg to fat at 202
try to fall asleep till 310
woke up & msg fat 318
surf the net 415
hooked on hey, soul sister 430
talking about my day 433

awesome life of mine. killed 10 mins. 2 more hours then i'm off to change for school. great life you have at TAS ngxiaoyun.

Welcome 2 Taiwan

2010-01-24T23:30:00.017+08:00

omgz. i'm in love with this photo. Its damn twilight. hahaha

Taiwan for me. Chen Shui Bian look alike tour guide, some farm animals, my dad's awsome face on the flume ride, a group of yuan zhu ming dancing & lao zhang's jiao bin

2010-01-21T23:23:00.002+08:00

(Inserts Photo)

Hello my lovely world.

Today i was so late for my consultation once i went into the room. I left 5 minutes later. Awesomeness. shouldnt even make the trip down. Its a perfect waste of time.

Toured at Resorts World. Feels like Genting. But better.

Had a shopping spree after that. Considering today and yesterday, i bought 7 pieces of clothings. OMGZ retail theraphy to the max. Thats when i realise i've got too much un-used clothing stuck in my wardrobe. Was looking for CNY clothings i ended up buying black, white, & blue stuffs that are totally un-wearable for new year itself. Sometimes its just a light blue demin shirt and its unacceptable. Its not that i refuse to wear something RAD you see. Its that nothing looks wearable. I wore hot pink last year, and i threw that piece of clothing to somewhere, where the light never shines. AHHAHA

Anyways. Subconciously i realise, once i get into the shopping mood. I DO NOT AND CANNOT STOP! the horror. Manage to curb myself when i put down that denim blazer. Although it was only 10. I should really stop there. I have this horrible tendency; see cheap things must buy. Horrible. HAHAH. $85 for 1 blazer, 1 dress, 3 tops, 2 shorts. Call me amazing!

I'm still trying to convince fat that denim shirts are hawt. And the matchy machy leopard print shorts i bought will look awesome on him. HAHAHAHA.

2010-01-20T01:49:00.000+08:00

more than a year. i just need someone to talk to. so hard? Life's seriously a bore. We exsist to suffer. really.

2010-01-16T04:02:00.005+08:00

seriously. I dont like being treated like a joke ok. Once or twice is fine. But when it's getting way outta hand, it should stop there. I'm trying my very best to be oblivious about it. But now and then its getting too much to handle. I get this for years. Maybe its just an unintentional remark, probably a joke to laugh about, but too much of it doesnt work the right way. You should try managing your vocab. You dont know how much i fucking hate this ok. Yes, on the other hand. you probably don't, thats also the reason why this post is needed. To vent my overwhelming fustration kept in for a hell lot of time. Sometimes, ok all of the times, unintentionally, yet i cannot stop myself, from attacking this poor innocent guy for a minor issue just because i know he/she is the only person who accept who i am. So if you dont get a bad time from me you are probably the asses that i may be referring to. (True to only a certain extent) First time i'm talking about this here because i just realise, yes maybe its right. I should be pissed now.

dont ask and dont try to. since you'll probably get a negative response. It doesn't matter who i'm referring to since its pural, not singlular. I may be even referring to myself. Everyone is sure to offend. No?

2010-01-02T21:29:00.013+08:00

NYE & a retarded face

Taiwan is unbearable. It feels so long at the start, then the trip started feeling so short. Shopping there was bad. Real bad. I think i kinda spent 50% on friends 35% on myself. (Y) Theres a reason for 35% you see. i'm left with $30 bucks out of $200 you see.

Not much photos. Camera was barely used since the battery last for 8 days. even after i came back (Y) Bought a sunflower for myself. It's growing in progress now. very excited ^^ ahahahha.

If new years eve is awesome, its an overstatement. Its not bad. not bad actually, but not great. Alps for countdown then left for another place. 2 hours for a song and it was snatched away from me. >=( and i'm not a bit happy. Except for that, its quite alright at the other pub.

semi retarded, but not there yet

WEIYING'S BIRD DAY ON 1ST JAN 2010!!! Officially 18 and ready to drive :D

Felt damn bad for not planning a great day. Since i had ZERO time for that, i left everything to yeochernyu who thought of being spontaneous on that day. So spontaneous we are and we had lunch + dinner at TGIF. It suck balls, cos it sucks.

Hey look seriously. Portion sucks. It looks like its feeding half a xiaoyun. 17 buckeroos for chernyu's awesomeness 10 piece nachos with cheese and very nice actually guacamole. And the nachos is the normal nacho chip size. SCAM!!!!!!! damn scam! and best part is that the person took 2 orders wrongly. My chicken breast sauce was horrible. Plus the sauce tastes like the pink colour triangle kueh's sweet sauce ( i figured out it was soon kueh). taste like shit with chicken breast. AND chicken breast SUCKS.

Then it was new year's BBQ at yy's house. hmmz. There was awesome tiger prawns, and some spongebob talk. That person is crazy he can practically sing every spongebob song ok!

Then thats it for the 2 days. new years eve and new years.

anyway i came across a random person

burning says:
yo
xiaoyun says:
you are?
burning says:
lex
burning says:
actually im curious as to how a doc would send u to a&e,a&e usually really emergency cases

Hilarious.

2009-12-14T01:22:00.009+08:00

Soph's maiden voyage.

I should seriously reconsider posting at my livejournal instead. At least i can bitch about what i want and lock the post. Actually i bitch about stuffs over there but nobody even checks on my lj so its kinda pointless. PLUS the page is screwed when people are not logged into their account whether friends or not when viewing my page. Given me, that i refuse to log in unless i want to comment which is 0.0000000001% that i will. So again, what was i talking about in the first place?

Anyway was talking about blogger, livejournal and what wordpress shit. Fat insists that wordpress is way cooler than blogger and livejournal. Considering the fact that wordpress sounds like some really cool journal. So, its cool. Blogger's kinda kidish and livejournal is for those who wants to act designerish and englishyyy. Blogger's fine with me since i am quite a retard at livejournal and stuff. And i'm the kinda person who insist in living in my own world and refuse to changes, so i'm quite happy with my kiddish blog and my kiddish stuffs i'm writing. HA. HA. HA.

Oh and about people being oh-so-poetic in the english they use when writing in facebook/blog/journal or whatever, it makes me think like hello, i think you just ripped this thing off a song lyrics, poem, or something -oo- When in real life they say shit about english.

"Oh see i'm so good in english i sound like shakespear in the virtual world" FAIL

ok i sound like a bitch. Wait i think i sound like zhiwei. But its kinda un-understandable if the whole content is like that. Like if one or 2 post is chim then thats alright, you see. I dont really lead a poetic life. I live in a world filled with singlish, and i have no problem speaking chinese which goes to another point about people wanting to be angmor.

Embrace your roots people. Embrace it.
People who tries to act english pisses me off. No but i dont get pissed off by people who are english. So yea. I'm seriously talking crap.

Anyway, Weiying and i were talking about zhiwei being the perfect bitch (Y) True to a large extent.

I have nothing to do. The whole facebook thing is depriving me from talking about my life! Photos whatever status thing is replacing blogging. But i want to go 10 years down the road and view my posts and laugh at how stupid i was 10 years ago. My archives are seriously lame. LOL interestingly enough, it is. -oo-

Anyway i never understand the facebook what status thing or whatever you call it. I'm a technology idiot. I refuse to join facebook after a year of people playing it. I refuse to play gunbound after a year when people started playing it. I just refuse to. I'm weird. I really am. anyway. YA. status or whatever it is called. ya. ok i dont understand it. I just can't. Saying that reminds me of the simpson movie. The part when they lake is revamped and they put a barrier at the lake. Then the minister or whatever people wanted to make sure nobody will ever throw stuffs into the lake anymore and to make sure its idiot proof. they ask this guy to throw something inside the lake. The guy tried to walk towards the lake but keep knocking onto the barrier a few times then he turn around and say "I can't. I just can't". The can't is not like (kan-nt) its like (Keeee-ant). "I kee-ant, i just kee-ant" Then the group of people were like wow. the barrier thing is successful. HILARIOUS!!! Ok. i dont think any people remember so whatever.

I keep shiting blood. And its not just a little. Its like technically a pool of blood. Its so much its like menses. Its on a daily basis, plus i'm shitting more than once a day making it more horrifying for me. I'm getting these panic attacks because of this, and i'll keep saying i am going to die. And fat will just reply: "No you are not". And everytime i say that that, he says that. I'm having some phobia about this on top of my batophobia. I got this from google. HAHAHHA. damn loser right. Bet you dont know what is it. so ok. Back to the point. so when people ask.

"so what are you afraid of?" I'll say, oh i'm afraid of heights and yes. sad to say, i'm scared of
shitting blood. WALAO! damn loser luh. I'm so damn afraid ok. I swear i'm scared i'll get some shit cancer and die of it. Cos LIKE WHAT ON EARTH IS A SHIT CANCER!!! or is it called colon cancer or something. BUT ITS SAD OK!

PANIC PANIC PANIC!!!

Oh my, this post is getting way to wordy. So i decided to attach 2 photos on the top which has totally no link with what i am saying here. AWESOME.

P.s: This is really cool http://www.phobialist.com/

2009-12-10T21:41:00.002+08:00

maybe. I'm right.

looking at the 2010 advert on tv makes me think about new years eve. This sucks again.

2009-12-06T15:27:00.004+08:00

from friday, i want to rest early to make it on saturday. to saturday i cannot i am sick and i need to get notes. to sunday i am not feeling well and i need to study to 28 Dec i-do-not-wish-to-see-your-face-anymore. Sick of everything now i feel like i should enjoy my life the way i want it to be.

Why do i always wait and wait for something that will not happen?

I just need time now. Alot of time.

Oh well. Guess i'm finally happy now. Very happy.

Date with weiying on wed to do some serious shopping!!! EXCITED MUCH!!!

Shall quit slacking and start studying real soon.

2009-11-05T15:08:00.004+08:00

I've not been going to school very often this semester. 2 hours of school on monday, full day on tuesday, and full day on friday. Rather relax. So i decided to wake up early on wednesday to do abit of my assignments to make myself feel better. So in the end i woke up at 1pm and painted my nails to 3 and went out after that. I spent a total of 3 hours painting my nails yesterday and wiped everything away. I just bought the nail polish and i'm finishing the whole bottle. Its drying up anyway. Since i keep opening, applying, erasing, apply yadayadayada.

Wasn't in a great mood yesterday. The photo is right smack in my face, embeded in my head and totally unerasable. ANGRY. Shall try to get over the picture or something. Still very upset ok.

So i've finally managed to paint 4 nails today. Very pretty! So i'm quite happy for now. Something i feel really weird about. I really enjoy driving, although sometimes i feel that i suck at it. It makes me really happy. Makes me feel excited. Aside money that makes me happy, i finally found another that makes me really happy too. I sound so fucking materialistic once again Ng xiao yun. I think i need to change my ambition. Strike off that taitai and be a full time taxi driver. (Y)

yawnzzzzz. Shall stop procrastinating and start doing my assignment. shitloads of projects to be handed up soon. And i shall make myself feel better for not going to school by trying to start on these assignments. AH. feel so hardworking right now.

Oh & i love the rain. I'm having the primary school slash secondary school mood. Feelssssss sooooooooooo weiiiiiiiiiiirdddddddddddddd.

2009-10-31T00:42:00.003+08:00

Tommorows Halloween. Bus ride home reminds me of what happened on New Years Eve. Made the wrong decision to stay at home and get dumped during the last minutes towards the new year. Everything i see is the opposite and i'm feel damn sick trying to remind myself that its not. I'm not comparing, i'm just analyzing. Somehow it all feels so foreign.

I dont want to be wrong anymore. At least for now i have my christmas in Taiwan.

I'm not alright and not ok. I'm upset but i dont need to cheer up. I would like to be upset until i feel better. Not that anyone cares.

2009-10-28T23:52:00.003+08:00

I'm praying hard that it doesnt rain tomorow. Freaky dream of me getting into an accident when i was in someone's car. Apparently, she was speeding and we were heading into a tunnel and the rain was so heavy that we couldnt see a shit, and we were driving so damn fast. Weirdest thing i realise was that it is still raining in the tunnel.

Then the dream evolved and when i looked out of my window i saw like 10,0000000 over malay men doing some prayers under my void deck. Freaky shit ok!

So morale of the story. Hope it doesn't rain tomorow. Hopefully it rains tonight, cause its damn good to sleep in. & hopefully it rains let's say at 1pm, a pretty good estimate considering the fact that my lesson ends at 12pm dilly dally and stuff 12.15pm. Journey home is a sweet 15-20 minutes. Then finally a good bath thats around 15 minutes. Then PAH can lie on sofa and watch some nice show while it rains (Y) awesomeness. Reminds me why i loooooooove january period when i was in secondary school. The morning rain is just amazing.

2009-10-17T20:50:00.007+08:00

Happy birthday girl.

It was quite a night. Went to get stuffs in the afternoon and head off to pasir ris inter. Met theresa and clarence and cabed over. Went to the wrong chalet, turns out terrace 4 issn't bungalow 4. A few more mosquito bites. Damn creatures. Hate them cos they always leave a scar on me. Blew balloons and tied them up. Then it was mahjong session.... in the dark. Food came and we ate. The mai pian xia kinda thing and shepards pie is damn awesome. Drinking games after that. But the smell of alcohol kinda turns me off. Wild night after all. I'm getting some serious flu & pre sore throat thing going on. Expecting fever though.

Short bus ride home made me think about me, myself & I. I dont know though, i feel so selfish at times. Yet, i can't force myself to do something i dont like to.

2009-10-17T13:15:00.014+08:00

crazy celabrations and drunk nights out. Think i look like shit in all the photos. Just realise i look disturbingly like a koi in 1 photo. lol.

6 shots killed the night. All along with 1 beer, 1 cranberry vodka.

Note to self: stop at 2, dont mix beer with liquor ever again.

uploading in progress. too much photos you see.

2009-09-24T00:35:00.002+08:00

On a second thought. Maybe i want something quieter this time round. I just want to be with close friends.

Get me some subway chocolate chip and mudslide cookies instead of presents.

ohhh and i'm craving for escargots...

2009-09-22T02:02:00.009+08:00

Buffet night

Hello earthlings.

Buffet on saturday night was horrifying. The whole place is filled with screaming kids.

Then there was this kid blocking my way saying "no! you cannot go". WALAO what you want me to do, this kid in front of me acting cute ok.

Birthday’s coming. Kinda excited… about the partying. Have many things planned and unplanned. I think this birthday will suck, but we’ll see how it goes. I’m expecting…

My wishlist! Yea sure, people who say thought that counts are bullshit. Cause its always better to get the right things. Give that person a piece of shit and expect him/her to be grateful cause it’s the thought that count. Seriously, there’s a lot of presents that got chucked away in a lonely corner and somehow disappear after years. And where does it goes to? ITS INCINERATED! (most probably) Kind souls, give me the money instead.

I sound so fucking materialistic. But I rather you don’t get me anything than give me something I wont use. Write me a letter, draw me a birthday card, it’s 10000000 times better than something I don’t use. At least 50 years down the road I’ll read, laugh and call you to ask you for my Mos chicken. Jiao, don’t forget you owe me 3.

Iya 讲到很多人会给我东西的感觉. Tried counting my friends. very few actually. Awesomeness.

But if anyone out there bothered to get me something, I suggest you contribute some cash to the “xiao yun fund” OR get me the following.

Senheisser PX100 headphones.
Coach audrina shoe in black
&&&&&&
I swear this is what I really one

THIS!

CHIO RIGHT!

Other than that, nothing in particular.

Chinese is starting to get very foreign for me. Should go read some Chinese books with Chinese words. Not those han yu pin yin one.

FYI. I use to be a EM1 student.